This is what you feel like!

, " When you are back in the world of loneliness! Where you just want to put yourself in the 12×12 room with closed door and far from this outside road noise.. the room where the  sound of running fan on the ceiling also haunts you; where the slightest knock in the door by the air shocks you.. where sometime your own breathing awakes you.. Why???
Why am I surviving this life? Is there any outcome to it!!
Just waking up to breathe some good air and munch few bits of my favorite food for my body to manage.
I am scared of this loneliness but more scared of the judgments of the people outside that closed door..
I know these judgments are not going to last forever but, the imprints on my mind what am i going to do with that???
I am strong but I am tired! This world has made me more weak by the process of its management.
By the relations formed on this world, which are like the threads of cocoon; as much as it juggles, thread gets wrapped around it only... As i am shuffling these strings, the more I am getting entangled with these threads!!!



But!! still have a mustard faith in me.
Yes! I guess that's what keeps me driven towards the day on my bed.
Faith, a small hope in my eyes, a little spark in my heart and the tiniest dream somewhere in my mind...
That the end will be the most beautiful..!!